October 06, 2005
Humanity sucks.
Going to blow off some steam.
Does it sound like a good idea to provoke someone who a) is generally nice yet has an explosive temper quivering beneath the surface, waiting to lash out; b) has strong convictions; c) holds grudges without any shame or remorse; and d) has a history of not taking shit, no matter how thickly veiled?
Probably not.
So what in the fuck do people expect from me? Just to say/do something, act like they're willfully ignorant of something that happened between them and myself/a loved one, and assume everything's going to be all hunky-dory? Fuck that. And fuck them. I don't like playing games, and I don't toss everything aside for simple reasons. And often, apologies aren't enough. I've heard too many idle "I'm sorry"s to believe them. You want to re-gain my trust? Prove it through your actions.
If you don't want to get bitten, don't fuck around with a snake. If you don't want to face the consequences, don't dick around with me or somebody I care about and then think that a chuckle and a simple back-patting's going to get you off the hook. I don't subscribe to the bullshit pacifist notion that time heals all wounds. I'm not that easy, and you shouldn't be either, because people are generally cutthroat motherfuckers out to use you like a doormat. Sure, I've met quite a few exceptions to the rule, and I'm grateful for that.
But that's beside the point. Don't piss me off and then expect me to be all buddy-buddy with you, because that shit's not going to happen. They say that life's too short to hold grudges. That's a lie. Life's too short to tolerate some people's bullshit, and you shouldn't have to feel guilty for getting angry over something, no matter how much people might want to portray it as a petty thing.
Posted by Jake at October 6, 2005 07:03 PM
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